Decepticon Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 Hello everyone. I have decided to quit DoL. I'm quitting firearms as well. I'm quitting all games. I'm not going to go into explicit detail about any of it, but I am have severe personal problems that are going to lead to suicide and I just wanted you guys to know that I'm not dropping off the face of the planet. I already know what I'm going to do and nothing anyone says or does is going to change that. So this is goodbye. Take care everyone. -nil8 This is what i found on the dol forum, maybe we can change his mind. I realy hope so... So plz post something http://www.imevil.co.uk/dol/forum/viewtopic.php?p=2436#2436 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Snauhi Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 OMG Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shotty Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 Dudes he has issues that alot of you couldtn comprehend, sychiatrist or not, leave him be let him sort out these issues as he feels best Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decepticon Posted December 23, 2003 Author Share Posted December 23, 2003 k, that might be but killing yourself is not a good thing to do... There used to be a time where you could die and nobody cared, nobody noticed and there was no problem at all, untill they found your body ofcourse. But now these days it costs a HUGE amount of money to die, leaving everybody else with that problem. And what dousn't kill you only makes you stronger... (btw dous this also happen with other mods, becouse otherwise the FA players have a problem ) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sterling Morrison Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 People who post stuff like that either a) want attention, or want help. Either way it doesn't matter. You can't get help over the internet. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
r1pP3r Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 -Sterling Morrison]People who post stuff like that either a) want attention, or want help. Either way it doesn't matter. You can't get help over the internet. I agree. If anybody lives near him.. then u better go over there to make sure he doesn't do anything he would regret later. Or find out where he lives and call the cops or something.. If he needs the help, give it to him. I remember when Mazor was going thru a difficult time and had an overdose.. Luckly, 2 of his friends on the forums called the cops to check up on him. He turned out alrite in the end. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sharpshooter6 Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 -ClaymoreCarl] Yes, he probably wanted attention and help, fine. I'd rather potentially waste my time giving him attention and trying to help, and have him not kill himself... than to ignore it and have him go through with it. i agree. killing yourself is selfish. you cause pain for a great period of time to all the people who cared about you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sharpshooter6 Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 -Ripper]I remember when Mazor was going thru a difficult time and had an overdose.. Luckly, 2 of his friends on the forums called the cops to check up on him. He turned out alrite in the end. Can anyone do anything like this? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Flipster Posted December 23, 2003 Share Posted December 23, 2003 dude talking about suicide is a real problem...even if it might be to get attention it still must be look upon carefully. If anyone lives near him or can get his adress or something we should really check up on him.. Hey nil we r here for ya, a lot of us have dealt with major problems and overcame them...just call or pm or something, u can get over it ok Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wellsy Posted December 24, 2003 Share Posted December 24, 2003 Ok im worried.No one in [DoL] lives near him, i also think he live in a pretty remote area, hes always talkin bout chopping wood, kinda worried that he might hav a chainsaw or axe :? Id also like to thank teh TA members who have given him thier support and to the others like Bane. Thanx you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sharpshooter6 Posted December 24, 2003 Share Posted December 24, 2003 i wish there was something we could do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shotty Posted December 24, 2003 Share Posted December 24, 2003 Trust me guys, if you are low enough to even think about killing yourself, then you probably think that no-one would notice either, i have been thru some tough times, some very tough times, and i OD'ed as well, it was only because i didnt turn up for work that a friend came around and sorted me out, i was in hospital for 3 weeks after that, thing s i didnt tell anyone anything, BECAUSE i thought no-one had time to sort me out, no-one cared, all we can do is let him know that we do care, and offer any help that we can. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
r1pP3r Posted December 24, 2003 Share Posted December 24, 2003 Holy shit.. this is more serious than I thought.. look at his last 2 posts...I feel for him. Honestly <=/How old is he now? He has a wife and kid, and he still wants to take his own life. Someone really needs to get the cops over there, someone call him atleast. Talk to him privately. He will do more damage to him soon and maybe even get another gun in his mouth.. This isnt good.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Decepticon Posted December 24, 2003 Author Share Posted December 24, 2003 Indeed this is serius, I agrea we should find him some help, do we have a name, adress anything? in the mean time just keep posting, if we are posting and he is reading he isn't killing himself, that is a positive thing Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bangbang Posted December 24, 2003 Share Posted December 24, 2003 DON'T KILL YOUR SELF, IT'S NOT GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH OR THE HEALTH OF THOSE AROUND YOU. NOTHING I REPEAT NOTHING IS WORTH KILLING YOUR SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON'T DO IT !!!!!!!!!!! :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: :!: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
r1pP3r Posted December 25, 2003 Share Posted December 25, 2003 If you want to say something to him, post it at the DoL forums PLZ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nil8 Posted December 25, 2003 Share Posted December 25, 2003 Hello everyone. I have been given the url to this post by someone else. I'm not going to say who.This is nil8, the same nil8 that was in DoL. The same nil8 that wrote all those things. I've been nil8 for years now. That won't change anytime soon.I have talked to a lot of people over the past few days. Family, friends, online.There is no DoL anywhere near me. I live in the Midwest United States.Well, I don't want to dump all of my problems because that would be stupid, but I will tell you that my mother is in the hospital, I am going through a divorce, and one of my old friends has a recently discovered brain tumor on top of other issues I haven't addressed.I'm not making this up just to get attention. Anyone who thinks that can think it to themself. I am hurting and I am looking for people who can relate to me. That is all.I can't say that I'm going to kill myself or not going to kill myself. Some of you might understand, as you have opened your hearts to me. Some of you might not know what it's like to see life as a bleak painful existance. In either case the decision is mine and mine alone. Input is very helpful though. It shows me that I am not alone in feeling like there is no point.I have been through a lot of shit in this life and I'm sure I will be through a lot more if I choose to live. I have come out of every experience a little bit more wise and a little bit more broken. I guess that's how it works for me.Anyway, I am glad that people have left comments and talked to me. I read each one in depth and I am glad that there are people out there who care enough to take time out of their day to discuss something that is often left unsaid. So thanks everyone. I still have a lot of thinking to do on the matter. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
r1pP3r Posted December 25, 2003 Share Posted December 25, 2003 Look, I know you have a lot of problems in your life. But you don't have to give every single detail why you want to kill yourself. Shit, get over it already. Life goes on, time heals all. You got a divorce? I feel sorry for ya. Some girl kicked ya in the nuts? I feel sorry for ya. (She was a stupid lil rich brat prolly, n e ways) You had to hunt your own deer when you were young? I feel sorry for ya. You threw up on some girl because she ticked? I feel sorry for ya. (And who gives a flying hoot? She was like 4 yrs old) You don't think anyone cares for you? I feel sorry for ya. (Even tho many people would break into your house just to see if you hadn't hurt yourself.) You beat yourself up with a tire chain? I feel sorry for ya. You put a loaded gun in your mouth? I feel sorry for ya. (Why didn't you pull the trigger?) You got heavy into drugs? Really, I don't feel sorry for you one bit there. Your grandma died infront of your eyes. I really feel for ya there.. it's hard to watch someone you love go away, huh? *HINT HINT :!: :!: * god.. The point is.... We all feel sorry for you, buddy, but you don't have to point it all out and make US take the pain. Alot of us here actually might care for you. sorry for being so harsh,but..... .. yea.. so.. Merry Christmas and have a good one. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nil8 Posted December 25, 2003 Share Posted December 25, 2003 Ripper I did pull the trigger.You know what happened? Nothing. A big load of nothing. The fucking thing misfired.I was just giving examples of why I feel the way I do. Memories are one of the few ways we have to judge our lives and what we have done with them. I am just expressing what I have seen and done. Some of you out there and been through similar things and can empathize. That's why I wrote them. I haven't even started on the list and I'm not going to. It's not something I need to tell others.I was 4. The guy was a senior in high school. The one I threw up on I mean.I've seen a lot of people in my life die. And life keeps going. That's why I don't see death as a problem. It's just something I have to come to a decision on.Carl, I am an intellectual person. To talk to me in person I act like an idiot most of the time, but I know a lot and I don't find reason to flaunt that fact. I found an escape in my life through education. The more I learn the more people left me alone, so I learned more and more. I have had serious thought in the past of becoming a history professor. History interests me to no end. I love to see how people lived, what they did with their lives, how they acted and that not everyone gets 15 minutes of fame, but the ones behind the scenes normally have more of an impact. I love history. I love the record of humanity as weird as that sounds.Anyway, I've been rambling on too long. I want everyone to have a merry x-mas. Take it easy. -nil8 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sharpshooter6 Posted December 25, 2003 Share Posted December 25, 2003 Carl, I am an intellectual person. To talk to me in person I act like an idiot most of the time, but I know a lot and I don't find reason to flaunt that fact. I found an escape in my life through education. The more I learn the more people left me alone, so I learned more and more. I have had serious thought in the past of becoming a history professor. History interests me to no end. I love to see how people lived, what they did with their lives, how they acted and that not everyone gets 15 minutes of fame, but the ones behind the scenes normally have more of an impact. I love history. I love the record of humanity as weird as that sounds. Anyway, I've been rambling on too long. I want everyone to have a merry x-mas. Take it easy. -nil8 history is always something that has intrigued me as well. im more of a battle guy myself, seeing the maps of what units were where and how the battle affected life. amazing. so your not the only one. i wish you a merry christmas, hopefully ill see you on the server sometime... 8) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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