nil8

good stuff.

Good games don't ever die. Even if I seem like a sentimentalist, but I like and remember the games I play. I remember quake, I remember wolfenstein 3d, hell, I even remember Pac-Man. I enjoy these games and the memories I have of them are decently happy. That's rare for the most part.Anyway, when FA finally does die, as it will, then we will all move our different ways and life goes on. Deal.

I agree with Wellsy. TA does take a lot of members from other clans. Oh well, there is always something to say about being a big clan.

I have 9 computers.2 are for troubleshooting.1 is my caldera box.1 is a fileserver.1 is my gaming rig.1 is my gateway(network not company)3 are for anyone who wants to come over and needs a computer.And I need to replace 4 of them because they are getting outdated. Sigh....

I got a carton of cigarettes and 2 new books.And yes, I gave myself all my gifts.

Ripper I did pull the trigger.You know what happened? Nothing. A big load of nothing. The fucking thing misfired.I was just giving examples of why I feel the way I do. Memories are one of the few ways we have to judge our lives and what we have done with them. I am just expressing what I have seen and done. Some of you out there and been through similar things and can empathize. That's why I wrote them. I haven't even started on the list and I'm not going to. It's not something I need to tell others.I was 4. The guy was a senior in high school. The one I threw up on I mean.I've seen a lot of people in my life die. And life keeps going. That's why I don't see death as a problem. It's just something I have to come to a decision on.Carl, I am an intellectual person. To talk to me in person I act like an idiot most of the time, but I know a lot and I don't find reason to flaunt that fact. I found an escape in my life through education. The more I learn the more people left me alone, so I learned more and more. I have had serious thought in the past of becoming a history professor. History interests me to no end. I love to see how people lived, what they did with their lives, how they acted and that not everyone gets 15 minutes of fame, but the ones behind the scenes normally have more of an impact. I love history. I love the record of humanity as weird as that sounds.Anyway, I've been rambling on too long. I want everyone to have a merry x-mas. Take it easy. -nil8

Hello everyone. I have been given the url to this post by someone else. I'm not going to say who.This is nil8, the same nil8 that was in DoL. The same nil8 that wrote all those things. I've been nil8 for years now. That won't change anytime soon.I have talked to a lot of people over the past few days. Family, friends, online.There is no DoL anywhere near me. I live in the Midwest United States.Well, I don't want to dump all of my problems because that would be stupid, but I will tell you that my mother is in the hospital, I am going through a divorce, and one of my old friends has a recently discovered brain tumor on top of other issues I haven't addressed.I'm not making this up just to get attention. Anyone who thinks that can think it to themself. I am hurting and I am looking for people who can relate to me. That is all.I can't say that I'm going to kill myself or not going to kill myself. Some of you might understand, as you have opened your hearts to me. Some of you might not know what it's like to see life as a bleak painful existance. In either case the decision is mine and mine alone. Input is very helpful though. It shows me that I am not alone in feeling like there is no point.I have been through a lot of shit in this life and I'm sure I will be through a lot more if I choose to live. I have come out of every experience a little bit more wise and a little bit more broken. I guess that's how it works for me.Anyway, I am glad that people have left comments and talked to me. I read each one in depth and I am glad that there are people out there who care enough to take time out of their day to discuss something that is often left unsaid. So thanks everyone. I still have a lot of thinking to do on the matter.

Thanks statecop. Once again steam messes up, once again someone in the community fixes it. Anyway, thanks a lot. Now I can play again.

I still have my nes hooked up. How much of a loser am I?

There are chokepoints in maps that don't allow for proper retaliation. Does that count as an exploit?This really needs to be worked out. Whatever the outcome, I don't care. I can exploit or I can play fair. Doesn't really bother me. I just don't want to play fair and have some little noobit exploiting.

Longest I spent was playing Max Payne.I beat all three modes without leaving my chair last thanksgiving weekend.I sat and played for 70 hours or so. I pissed in soda bottles and ate a meal a day.Good times. I couldn't use my eyes for an entire day they were so bloodshot and sore.So, yea. I'm nuts. Did any of you really expect something else?

Life is only suck if you make it so.You have to realize that you are the master of your reality. So master it and stop limping around like a little girl. (No offense little girls)

I was at 54%. I am a super geek! I'm geeky as hell. I love dnd.

Beautiful Okibi. Good speech.I'm looking into a Car 15. I think it would be nice to trick one out. I just don't have the money atm. =(Ah well.

That thing is a barn door. =D

Yea, work on them one at a time. Just don't burn yourself out. If you wanna take a break, work on another one. That's the easiest way to work on anything.

Malakian made a good point on the first page.This new punk pop crap is just that, crap.I bet sum41 thinks a mosh pit is something you buy at 7/11.My list is diverse and boring. So it's just better to yell at me now!NOFXRancidVoodoo Glow SkullsThe PoguesPrimusRATMSlipknotSublimeWu TangOutkastNINMindless Self Indulgence(YEA!)Old Incubus(like the shrooms lp)Old 311 (before soundsystem)Other than that, it's just specfic songs. These are the bands I listen to.

You guys make baby jesus cry.

You're going for a job with gamespy? Good luck.

I always pull mark1 & 2 if I can.On the ak47 config I run mark1 & nomen. I need to reload.

My name nil8 has an old history.I picked the name up 10 years ago when I was a mere 9 years old.Being born and raised in central missouri, I hated cowboys and hicks.I hung out when I was a kid with street punks and druggies because that was all there was in my town.I went to a punk show in town and a band called nil8 was there. They were good. Damn good. So, I went home on my 486, got on to the local bbs and changed my name from their on out. I have been nil8 ever since and if I get my webcam up and running I will take a few pics of my tattoo.

Athalon 950 Mhz(NOT TBIRD!)768 MB sdram2 120 GB HDVoodoo5 5500 64MB AGPSanta Cruz Turtle Beach Sound CardMy fileserver is k62 450 mhz with a lot of hard drives and a tv input card.(A lot is more that 6)

This isn't a virus.Yes, you can delete them. And if you play like I do there are a LOT of them.It is annoying, but don't worry about it, just get rid of them.

I can pull them off your ftp but to be honest I don't remember how to play demos anymore. Could you post the commands for those of us who fill our brains with useless crap to only have it dissapear again?

KlifFlakGatorMac!You have to name it that. It just rolls off the tongue. =Þ